Reality Check 101

Are we meant to get "over" the people we love/loved at some point in our lives? If we loved once, do we love forever? I have battled this question for quite some time and have gone back and fourth. How do you know if you're really over someone? I have decided that if you loved once, you will care FOREVER... I have been trying to tell myself that we will always love the ones we loved. I was wrong... I don't love all that i have once loved. But I do love you... I hate that i love you... but i mostly hate that you love me too.

::To Be Loved::

Wanting to be loved is like wanting everything and nothing at the same time.
It's wanting to be liberated but effortlessly.
It's the mixture of confusion and ecstasy.
The fight between joy and pain.
It's wanting to feel unexplainable, but always have an explanation.
It's wanting to be untouchable, but be touched like an angel.
It's wanting the depths of my soul to be seen with the simple connection of the eyes.
It's wanting ones heart to beat not for mine, but with mine.
It's the exchange of dreams and aspirations with no words.
It's wanting a conversation, but not wanting to talk about it.
It's wanting to grow and bloom like a flower but still in need of a strong and stable soil to do so.
It's wanting the imperfections in me to be the perfections that one appreciates.
It's wanting the desert with the rain, fire and Ice, affection and space, love with hate.
It's wanting to be unreachable to most, but yet reached by one.
Wanting to be loved isn't wanting anything at all,
It's feeling everything at once.

~Pain, happiness, and unconditional love~

Through the tears I've cried and the pain i hide, I refuse to live my life in fear.

I am a woman of strength and independence.
I am passionate in my voice and hold truth in my heart.
Although my heart has been ravaged, and betrayed, I am still convinced...
Convinced that true love will be nothing but unconditional.
Convinced that happiness isn't in finding you, but in finding me.
Piecing together the small matters of truth, that keep me strong in hope.
being content in knowing that they're are things I've said and done that i cant take back.
Hoping that I will continue to live life with no regrets.
Knowing that the tears I've endured are for better worth.
In hope that my worth will be appreciated by not only you, but me.
Convinced that in happiness i will be set free of my insecurities.
That my insecurities will become my confidence, and in my confidence i will find unconditional love within myself.
In love you find pain, In family you find happiness, but before you can truly love and appreciate others you must first find unconditional love within yourself.
I love myself first and foremost and am confident that happiness will find me.