:10 things to know about So Fly when it comes to love:

1. My biggest fear in love is that there is no such thing... and that if there is it will never last forever as nothing does.
2. I'm afraid to love and not be loved the same in return.
3. I sometimes think i will never be loved the way i want and deserve to be... simply faithful and true.
4. When I love, I love with all i have.
5. I don't associate sex with love per say. It can be an act of, but doesn't have to be.
6. The closest you can get to me and my heart is through a kiss--the most personal of actions. A Real Kiss that is...
7. I have loved, given all of me mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually... and i have lost--which brings me back to #1.
8. I absolutely HATE people who can't decipher the difference of being in love and just loving someone.
9. If you think you want to love me, you better love yourself first! You can't truly love if you don't truly love yourself.
10. Finally--ALL IS FAIR IN LOVE AND WAR...

::A New Start::

When I look into your soul, I know you’re worth the fight.

So I will keep on fighting for what I believe is real… and to me, that’s you.

You’re everything I’ve ever wanted in a man.

You are the one I love…

The one my heart belongs to…

And as long as you hold my love,

I will continue to hold on to what could be between you and me.

Salvage this now and forever never regret another moment of this relationship

Put me first, above all else, at the top of your priorities…

If you love me the way I love you, I know you’ll do so.

If you don’t want to lose me the way I don’t want to lose you, you’ll find a way to make me believe in you…

To make me believe you’re true…

To make me believe that not a SINGLE thing could ever come between us two!

Show me that you love,

Show me that it’s only me…

Give to me you’re everything…

It won’t be easy to re-teach my heart trust,

But if you love me then you must…. Be real from every angle,

Be real with all your heart

Be real to yourself…because I’m giving you a new start.

To put the pain away in hopes of a brighter day is not easy….

But that’s how strong my love is.

That’s how much I believe in you… in hopes that, that’s how much you believe in yourself and in this love.

If your love is pure and true and I am the only one for you…

You will prove it to my soul and imbed it in your heart.

Because this is the last start….

::Letting Go::

If you knew I was yours, you shouldn’t have wasted time.

You shouldn’t have been waiting for the right moment or the right reason…

Because in reality, no such thing exists.

Instead, now as we speak, what’s left of our emotional attatchment, is deteriorating in your face.

Crumbling, with no intention or reason to be pieced back together.

If only you would’ve taken all the space and opportunity you once had, and used it to your advantage.

But rather, you chose to wait.

To be caught in a moment of uncertainty, doubting what was and wasn’t real.

Doubting whether those feelings you were catching were love or lust.

Rather than just letting your heart decide, you were a coward…

Emotionless, and ruthless…

Even after the more you chose to wait, I still continued to stay strong.

Thinking that my strength would give you the courage,

The courage you needed to be real and true to not me, but yourself.

I will never be able to tell you everything…

But I can tell you that I was more than ready and down, I was real!

Real about YOU.

But you chose the hard way, the insecure way, the pussy way out.

& in the end were both left without,

Without anything but the memory of what could’ve been.

Wondering if the decisions we made were the right ones.

I know and fully stand behind my decision and walk away with my head held high and will continue to stay strong and open-minded.

You, will continue to live with the fact that you passed up an opportunity that you weren’t even willing to take a chance with… now you try to sleep at night…

Reality Check 101

Are we meant to get "over" the people we love/loved at some point in our lives? If we loved once, do we love forever? I have battled this question for quite some time and have gone back and fourth. How do you know if you're really over someone? I have decided that if you loved once, you will care FOREVER... I have been trying to tell myself that we will always love the ones we loved. I was wrong... I don't love all that i have once loved. But I do love you... I hate that i love you... but i mostly hate that you love me too.

::To Be Loved::

Wanting to be loved is like wanting everything and nothing at the same time.
It's wanting to be liberated but effortlessly.
It's the mixture of confusion and ecstasy.
The fight between joy and pain.
It's wanting to feel unexplainable, but always have an explanation.
It's wanting to be untouchable, but be touched like an angel.
It's wanting the depths of my soul to be seen with the simple connection of the eyes.
It's wanting ones heart to beat not for mine, but with mine.
It's the exchange of dreams and aspirations with no words.
It's wanting a conversation, but not wanting to talk about it.
It's wanting to grow and bloom like a flower but still in need of a strong and stable soil to do so.
It's wanting the imperfections in me to be the perfections that one appreciates.
It's wanting the desert with the rain, fire and Ice, affection and space, love with hate.
It's wanting to be unreachable to most, but yet reached by one.
Wanting to be loved isn't wanting anything at all,
It's feeling everything at once.

~Pain, happiness, and unconditional love~

Through the tears I've cried and the pain i hide, I refuse to live my life in fear.

I am a woman of strength and independence.
I am passionate in my voice and hold truth in my heart.
Although my heart has been ravaged, and betrayed, I am still convinced...
Convinced that true love will be nothing but unconditional.
Convinced that happiness isn't in finding you, but in finding me.
Piecing together the small matters of truth, that keep me strong in hope.
being content in knowing that they're are things I've said and done that i cant take back.
Hoping that I will continue to live life with no regrets.
Knowing that the tears I've endured are for better worth.
In hope that my worth will be appreciated by not only you, but me.
Convinced that in happiness i will be set free of my insecurities.
That my insecurities will become my confidence, and in my confidence i will find unconditional love within myself.
In love you find pain, In family you find happiness, but before you can truly love and appreciate others you must first find unconditional love within yourself.
I love myself first and foremost and am confident that happiness will find me.